Its sad when the thing stopping you from going through with something stupid yet tempting is your job and not family or whatever

I constantly feel trapped and lonely whether it be home or anywhere else. But maybe I feel trapped inside myself rather than in a place.

Im not coping at all.

Went to the psych and she got me to practice quitting my job and i got really worked up and started crying and appz hyperventilating and she said thats a panic attack and i was like :)))))))))))i didnt know this, this happens a lil bit)))))))))))

I miss being okay

It’s very easy to not want to be me at the moment. I somehow thought it was a general feeling that people had/went through but I’ve found out otherwise.

It’s really easy to be really unhappy atm.

Working 5 nights straight til 3-4am has taken its toll AND made me realise how ew the valley is. I’ve seen some real weird/gross shit. But also I get to see black dahlia murder twice so there we go. I win. (not really i still need a full-time design job pls, I’m dying) 

Doing posters for work may seem like such a small achievement but it’s literally been a dream of mine for years to do posters for bands etc and finally I am. It’s making me the happiest gal. Much love to meg from tbc and crowbar for letting me not only sling beers but have fun with their event posters.